The hopes and dreams of Mr Nale

[keith]

Final 8/Round 8:

Sorry Mac  It had to be you because of the marked vote and the fear of an even split. I am really really sorry.

[keith]

Final 8/Round 8 Cont'd.

This will MOST LIKELY be my last confessional. I have a busy day today and can't scramble all the way till deadline. So yeah last round showed me where I stand with people in terms of trust. Kent, Hoang, Richter, Taj all lied to my face. McDevitt did McDevitt things. Hamilton gave me a heads up that the vote was Liz and I promptly warned her triggering an idol play. The vote had to be McDevitt because of Holden's marked vote and because personally I knew that getting McDevitt out was the best move for me. If she was still in the game this round as opposed to Hoang who we were going to vote for originally,then the push to vote me off this round would be even stronger than it is currently and I would for sure be dead in the water.

However, that doesn't mean anything since I was stupid enough to actually try in the puzzle comp. I knew Liz would win the moment I saw the comp. Yet I still submitted and ended up getting second place -_- IDIOTIC decision by me. Now I am pleading for my life to 4 people who lied to me and kept me out of the loop when I wasn't even the voting target last round AND I have put a challenge related target on myself. STUPID STUPID STUPID.

It's not ALL bleak though. Hoang has talked to me extensively about how the vote is Kent this round. He has made a lot of efforts to reassure me. If he's going to just turn around and vote me out, he has led me on big time and given a LOT of false hope. But I can't really fault him for it since there was an idol play in JUST the last round. I did my best to make sure Hoang knew exactly how I felt. I was as real with him as I possibly could be. Will that be enough? IDTS because THE GAME will win out in the end and I can't really argue with the notion that voting me off here this round is the better move for the 4 people who lied to me last round.

Taj has been frustrating to deal with in a strict game sense. She has completely ignored the fact that she lied to my face last vote and is behaving like nothing changed. It is very hard for me to muster up the willingness to talk to her. BUT I DID DO IT. And it went just as I expected. She was cordial enough to engage in friendly chit chat. But as soon as I tried to switch topics to the game, she disappeared. Oh well. If this actually IS Host Sierra of Twisted then this is no surprise whatsoever. If this ISN'T her, then it's still just the same because Taj has been like this all game with me when it comes to game talk. It's whatever though. I am not exactly mad or upset with her. She's doing what she thinks is best and if I don't factor into her plans, then it is what it is.


I am also not really upset with Richter. She said she had no real excuse for lying to me. I love talking to Lindsey about random nonsense. So I told her game wise she shouldn't trust me and I don't trust her. And whatever happens will happen. I think at the moment, she is in a prime spot to win the game.


Malcolm and I are joint at the hip at this stage. A bit out of necessity but I think I am one of the few (if not only) who LIKES Malcolm. I mean I GET the frustrations other people have that he isn't very prompt at replying. And that when he does reply it can be a bit of a boring conversation. But when it comes to strategy the dude really does think a lot and has some eat ideas. For now he is one of the votes that I KNOW are on my side and that's extremely valuable to me. I COULD ask him to play his idol on me this round but TBH that would hurt more than help because it would pretty much seal the deal that both of us are out back to back at 7 and 6 even IF it works successfully and we are able to idol out Kent. So I am not going to ask him that. Also I do't ACTUALLY think he'd do it.


She's immune this round and has not been on AIM so far at all. Kinda frustrating. But she is also a vote in my corner for now. At least I think? I am actually not sure and she could very well just vote me off this round. Which you know is fine. She is in the minority as well. I left her an offline IM that I am being told the vote is Kent. Waiting for her to get back to me.


<3 <3 <3 I love Darnell. He was the reason last round went down the way it did. He has been VERY up front and forthcoming with me that he wants to work with not just me, but Malcolm and Liz as well. He also worked his charm and influence with Hoang and Richter into turning the target onto Kent this round. He is confident that it will work. I am not. But I DO trust HIM in that he will vote with me. I offered him a Final 2 last night which I 100% intend to honor. I don't think it will work. But if I can benefit his game in anyway, I will. 


The man of the hour! I have a lot of issues with how he handled last round. And how in general he has handled this game. Firstly I am pretty sure I told him at some point I wanted Liz gone. Which now that I think about it he probably used against me to Liz. But moving on. He lied to me last round and after I approached him about it he gave me half-assed answers. Then he approached me this round saying he is worried, asking me not to vote him, then immediately turning around to get the votes on me. On one hand he is freaking out to (or pretending to freak out to) Malcolm, Darnell. On the other hand, he is BSing me about the vote NOT being on me but being on Malcolm. Now make no mistake about it. I will lie through my teeth to him this round and vote for him. Even though I am fully aware it is the wrong move for my personal game to vote Kent out so early, I will do it. Because he has left me no choice. He shattered any trust I have with him in the course of last round and this. I do not trust him to be smart enough to see that he needs me and I need him. Also Darnell REALLY wants him out and I am not about to bite the hand that's trying to feed me. But it is frustrating that I basically laid it out to him a few rounds ago that he needs shields. He proceeded to snap at me for telling him how to play his game (even though I was just discussing things with him because I THOUGHT WE WERE ALLIES?). He's now freaking out about how HE handled last round and still refuses to do anything about it. I understand that he is probably worried about the same thing I am worried about. That if he tries to make a move WITH me I will throw him UTB and get him out. But the fact of the matter is that this dynamic that now exists between us is all his fault. He brought this on himself. He tanked both of our games and we'll both be sitting in the jury wondering where it all went wrong for us. It's more than a little disheartening when an ally you trust so much disposes you so nonchalantly. SIGH. 

So what I think will happen this round is maybe a 5-4 or a 6-3 vote against me. Jeff, Taj, Lindsey, Ken, Morgan's marked vote will be against me. Liz may or may not vote me. The only people I actually TRUST to vote against Jeff with me are Malcolm and Darnell. And even that is a bit of a hopeful stretch tbh.

I just wanted to say thanks to Nick for casting me. I will admit when I joined this game I thought it would be a lowkey, not-that-exciting game. But this game has blown my expectations out of the water and I believe it has been one of the more amazing games I have ever had the chance of playing. It goes to show that a GOOD season of Survivor just needs a good cast and not any flashy twists or insane graphics. That being said, the marked vote twist is AMAZING. It's so simple but like it has SO MANY cool consequences on how it alters approach to voting strategy. It's been amazing and I am a bit sad that my time in the game has to end tonight. A Final 8 placement is very fitting for me though and especially after Morgan just having left last round. I am not bitter at all at ANYONE. I feel like everyone's games has some sort of merit to it and that anyone left would make for a very good winner. That's a good feeling to go into the jury. I am VERY excited to watch how this game shakes out 

[keith]

Final 8/Round 8 Recap:

I have NO IDEA how I am still here. I shouldn't be here right now. I was CONVINCED I was toast yesterday. Kent made a public plea which completely threw everyone in a tailspin. There was fear of idols, fear of Taj playing her double, talk about switching, paranoia, panic et al. I'll try my best to recap what happened and why/how it happened from my perspective.

Someone told Kent that he was going home. Taj or Lindsey is my guess. Probably both tbh. So he confronted me and yelled at me for thinking he's an idiot. I just sat there and let him vent. Then he went and posted his TC thing where he exposed perhaps the most obvious alliance at this stage. Like we all know how last round went down, this is not groundbreaking info Kent. The only new thing to come out of it was the name "Icons". Which you know good name and all. So that was that. I briefly talked with Liz and Malcolm to see if they were biting. Liz was KINDA biting because she was immune so she didn't care. But I talked her out of it because the marked vote was against me and it was MY ass on the line. Malcolm and I were pretty much on the same wavelength as far as how to approach this whole situation. And that was basically do nothing. He and I don't trust Kent at all. That was the better choice in the end as it turned out.

I talked to Hoang once enough time had passed after Kent posted his TC spiel. I told Hoang nothing had changed for me. He went into a big tirade that he's still voting Kent and that if we were going to idol him that we should vote him. That was very interesting to me. I didn't picture Hoang as the sacrificial kind. But I reassured him that I meant what I said when I told him I had his back. I kept trying to talk to him reassuring that the vote will stay on Kent and not to give in to paranoia.

This paranoia reached NEW HEIGHTS when Darnell came online. Like Darnell's actions yesterday were SUPER SKETCH to me. I realize that he was paranoid about an idol being played on Kent. But it kinda felt as if he was playing up his paranoia WAY TOO MUCH in order to trigger an incorrect idol play on my part. And TBH it almost worked because I asked Malcolm if he would play his idol on me. And I THINK he would have? But like I tried to calm myself down. It made no sense for Malcolm to play his idol on me. Like even if the majority vote was on me, he saves me, we're still up shit creek at Final 7, without an idol and having burnt the trust being built with Hoang and Darnell. So it really wasn't worth it me staying in the game for one more round like that. I told him to hang onto it. I kept reassuring Darnell and Hoang to just stick to the Kent vote. I figured Taj and Lindsey will want to save Kent if possible and their BEST hope at that was to vote me with Taj's double vote. That would put 5 votes on me and if they pressured Hoang enough, I felt like he would do it. And during that whole stressful 2 hours I kinda felt like even Darnell would switch his vote to me if he was pressured enough. But thankfully he didn't. Like I am still pretty much committed to going F2 with Darnell. But I DOUBT he wants the same thing. And THIS next round will be a good indication of where Darnell TRULY stands. But I'll get to that in a bit.

I had no interactions with Lindsey during the whole scrambling. I didn't want to waste my time with her. Glad I didn't.

I finally bit the bullet and asked Taj why she lied to me. She gave me a pretty expected answer. But it was a fair enough reasoning. I don't have anything against Taj on a personal level. But I don't think I will waste time game wise with her. I don't see her wanting to vote to keep me around much longer. Heck I am expecting to be F7 boot. I'll TRY to keep up casual fun chats with her. But if she is who I think she is, I will be ignored and ghosted since it's time for me to get eliminated. It's whatever I am used to this routine by now.

Final 7/Round 9:

During the whole scrambling though, one thing stood out to me. Darnell freaked out when Taj didn't give him a voting target. So that game relationship is stronger than I thought. That's going to be a problem. Because I am not really sure how tight Lindsey is with these people. I have so far suspected a trio of Lindsey, Ken, Darnell to be the CORE. But maybe the real core is Ken. Darnell, Taj. I am not really sure. But that is pretty moot right now. We're at Final 7 and there are THREE very DISTINCT outsiders. There is NO WAY that Liz, Malcolm and I ALL make it through this round without a correct idol play. Even IF the other 4 aren't really tight with each other they HAVE to see that their best hope is to stick together and vote 4 strong against one of us. Kent's marked vote is most likely against Hoang but it doesn't really matter since all we can do is tie it 4-4. The marked vote disappears on the revote. Now there has been a very suspicious development. Lindsey approached Malcolm last night saying she wanted Hoang out. I smell BS tbh. I feel like its some sort of convoluted trust test setup by Hoang to see how loyal Malcolm (and by extension me) REALLY are to him. I am gonna talk to Hoang about it when he gets back online. I had more to say but I need to get back to work. This is going to be another stressful round for me and quite possibly the round where I get eliminated. Stay tuned!

[keith]

Final 7/Round 9 Cont'd.

And here we go again. This time though I am even MORE certain this will be my last round. This might not be my last CONFESSIONAL though. Also I am sure once I get to jury and get to talk to Morgan I will have a lot of thoughts about the game. BUT ANYWAYS. This round is another mad scramble. The idol paranoia is so great. Like it will almost definitely be the death of me but watching this people scratch their heads thinking "WHO HAS THE IDOL" is super fun   So let's get into fun stuff.

After Ken won immunity last night, I made my pitch to him why I should stay. It was a pretty straight forward pitch and I THINK he agreed to it honestly. I THINK he will TRY to not let the vote be me. Here is the chat log



Now I don't 100% believe it. Because at the end of the day, Ken is a smart player and will do what he feels benefits him the most. From MY perspective keeping me benefits him. Like I told him even IF he has everything setup perfectly in his alliance so that Taj, Linds, Darnell all of them willingly take Ken to the end, he doesn't lose anything by keeping me. And if he is TRULY smart he should think of me as a shield to deflect votes onto when the endgame is nearer. Now I am aware enough to realize that I am NOT a jury threat. Morgan hates me. Jeff likes other people more than he liked me. I might BECOME a jury threat if Liz and Malcolm leave before me. But that's the whole point. If Liz and Malcolm leave before me THEN he can point to me as a jury threat and survive one more round. But the problem is I can't just TELL him this lmao. Because then he will think "Oh if Keith knows this then Keith will have thought how to overcome it. That's worrisome so I should vote him out right now" >_> LOL Oh this game. So yeah I have to HOPE Ken arrives at this conclusion by himself. I believe he is smart enough to do so. As of now IDT Ken will vote me.

Darnell is my biggest ray of hope in this game. He keeps telling me he won't vote for me. But in talking to him today he said the others THINK he will. That's worrisome to me and I'll touch on that at the end of this post. Darnell has been feeding me info the whole round how he wants it to be Liz but Taj is pushing for a Malcolm vote. This is because Malcolm is pushing for a Taj vote. He is SUPER paranoid and it's kinda cute lol. If there is one person who I 100% trust won't vote me, it's Darnell. I told him I don't care if he tells me the real voting target. In fact I encouraged him to keep the real voting target a secret. I just told him to make sure it wasn't on me. As of now, he has delivered. He says I am safe. Question is will that stay the same. The answer is "No it won't" And here's why


She's a fake fucker lol. Purely on a game level though. Like she came up to Malcolm and threw out Ken's name and then Taj's name. It's so much see through BS. Now TBF, it COULD be Malcolm making shit up or misinterpreting what she means to say. But like she is giving false hope to Malcolm. And I feel it's to make sure she isn't the voting target since she doesn't wanna be idoled out. Very selfish way to play. Fair. But selfish. I told Malcolm I don't believe a single word she says but he seems to be too dense to realize that. If I had a choice this round, I would vote her out. And I have a sinking feeling she is going to ultimately want to target me this round. She is in a position where she IS capable of making it happen. I am pretty scared of it tbh I don't WANT to go home just yet lol. But Malcolm believes her and is buying into her lies at the moment. I don't KNOW what Liz wants but she did share her general sentiments with me. So lets move on to them.

 + 
Liz is CONVINCED that Taj is the ONLY option of survival. That Ken, Lindsey and Darnell are an unbreakable trio. She said that we should not vote for Taj under any circumstances. I tried to push her into targeting Lindsey. I am playing a little dirty here because Darnell told me that if Lindsey hears Liz is targeting her, the target will fall squarely on Liz. Which is what Darnell wants. Meanwhile Malcolm wants to work with Lindsey to vote Taj >_> Now Malcolm told me that Lindsey came to him targeting Taj. I told him last night itself that this HAD to be complete and utter BS. That Lindsey would not commit game suicide like that. Darnell confirmed to me that it is indeed BS. But I can't just TELL Malcolm that since that would give away the fact that Darnell and I talk openly. I left him an IM today telling him to provide screenshots so that Liz can make a pitch to Taj. I NEED this to happen. Like Liz NEEDS to target Lindsey. Malcolm NEEDS to get over it. I am gonna keep working on this part through the day.


Taj and I had a FAIRLY open chat last night. It was quite unexpected to me tbh. I THINK I did JUST enough to where taj wouldn't ACTIVELY push for me to go. Combined with Malcolm pushing to get her voted out, her preference RIGHT NOW seems to be getting Malcolm voted out. I need that to change to Liz. OR I need that to stay on Malcolm LMAO. But I am gonna try to make efforts here and there with her through the day to make sure she doesn't wanna vote me.

NOW. What do I WANT? Like I WANT Lindsey out. The paranoid, power-hungry side of me would LOVE to have Malcolm, Liz and I still in the game at Final 6. Because with Jeff's black vote against Ken, we'd have a REAL shot to claim some power. Albeit relying on a clutch immunity win for one of us AND a favorable rock. BUT IT'S SOMETHING MAN. But I fully realize that there is NO CHANCE of that happening without a correct idol play. And AS OF RIGHT NOW, I think I can trigger a successful idol play. I THINK. Because Darnell and I have had a PRETTY OPEN dialogue all round.  He's telling me right now the vote is on Malcolm. The vote is ON THE GUY WHO HAS AN IDOL DUDE. And all I have to do is tip him off last minute to play it. And it's done. But I REALLY don't want to burn Darnell's trust. Like I REALLY don't. Also in all this scrambling, there was a brief period where we were trying to get Taj to flip to us because Lindsey approached Malcolm for a Taj vote. But apparently she was just AGREEING <_< GDI Malcolm lmao. 

I don't know what I will do. I am FULLY expecting the vote to get flipped on me last minute. Because FML tbh. I'll try to keep this confessional updated throughout the day. GOD THIS IS STRESSFUL.

[keith]

So about an hour before deadline and I just cast my vote for Liz. IDT I am changing that tbh. Even though every fibre of my strategic being is telling me that I should vote Taj, I don't think I can go through with it. I NEED to preserve trust with Darnell. Even though TBH he's not going to be able to save me next round. That is assuming he CAN save me this round. But whatever. HOWEVER, I DID do SOMETHING with Malcolm.



IDK. That's a HUGE gray area. However my OWN vote is on Liz. If Malcolm DOES end up playing the idol, IDK who he will vote.

Like I am feeling SO defeated right now. I keep going back and forth between hating the 4 people in that Icons alliance because ... IDEK man. I feel there is a very good chance I DON'T go home this round. Which probably means I WILL go home. I am just struggling a lot with this inner turmoil of whether or not I should make one LAST grab at power by tipping Malcolm off to play the idol and to MAKE Liz and him vote Taj. But you know what. I am not doing that. I was in KIND OF a similar situation once before where I COULD HAVE been a power hungry asshole. I chose not to do it then. I ended up winning that game. That's not going to happen here. There is NO WAY I win this game. NONE. But I want to go out being proud of the way I played. I don't know what that means yet. But for now, not betraying Darnell's trust will have to do. I'm sorry Malcolm. And I'm sorry Liz. I'm really sorry.

[keith]

Final 6/Round 10:

*flashback to Final 12*

Keith ensures Amanda goes home to save Malcolm from being voted out because he is a shield and has an idol.

*flashback to Final 11*


Keith works hard to save Malcolm again but Natalie shoots herself in the foot so Malcolm and his idol are saved again

*flashback to Final 10*


Keith contemplates having Malcolm idol Alecia but then finds an idol of his own which he gives to Alecia to make LE BIG MOVEZ. That idol turns out to be fake but Keith takes solace in the fact that Malcolm and his idol are both still safe

*flashback to Final 9*


Keith and Malcolm are READY AND PREPARED to have Malcolm play his idol to take out Morgan. Everything changes last minute and LIZ ends up playing HER idol to take out Morgan. Keith, Malcolm and his idol are STILL in the game

*flashback to Final 8
*

Hoang sees the perfect opportunity to seize control of the game and take out Kent. Malcolm and his idol are STILL in the game. How? No one knows.

*flashback to Final 7*

Keith knows the vote is on Malcolm. Does nothing about it. Malcolm hears the vote is on Keith. Does nothing about it. Malcolm and his idol are no more. Keith is left standing scratching his head on what just happened.

On a PURE STRATEGIC LEVEL, that was incredibly stupid of me to let Malcolm get voted out when I had ALL THE INFO I NEEDED TO SAVE HIM. Siiiiiiiiiiigh. Will it pay off for me? I don't think so. Good thing is I don't think Liz can win this comp. So she will MOST LIKELY be the vote. Sure I'll get a few votes thrown my way in the split. But she will ultimately end up going home. But then I just go home at Final 5. I am tired. Sorry Maclolm  And sorry Alecia   I should have just sacked up and made a move against Jeff and Taj when I had the chance. SO MUCH REGRET. I feel like I let a lot of people down this game. Including myself. It's a sick feeling. I hate this.

[keith]

I REGRET EVERYTHING

[keith]

FINAL FUCKING 5! HOORAY!

What's great about this is that I am going to be so OTT in their faces about this immunity, they will FOR SURE vote me out at Final 5. AND I WILL HIT MY ORG PLACEMENT BINGO BECAUSE I HAVE NEVER GOTTEN 5TH PLACE BEFORE. THIS IS AMAZING. I still DO feel bad about Malcolm and REALLY bad about Alecia. But DAMN does this feel good. In your face jerks! Fuck you Taj! Fuck you Linds! Fuck you Ken! Love you Darnell <3

[keith]

[keith]

THINGS ARE ABOUT TO GET GOOD



(But probably not since it's not going to work)

[keith]

BIG MOVEZZZ!!1!!1


 I started typing this out in the morning and already a lot has changed. Here's a rundown of what all happened AFAIK. 

Liz showed her screenshot of the idol to Taj and Darnell at the very least. Liz told me the plan was to show it to everyone and let Taj know that she is getting the second most votes in the split. Which I believe Liz did. Liz ALSO approached Darnell with it. Now Liz's METHOD of trying to "flip" people leaves a bit to be desired. She TOLD Darnell that he has been tight with Lindsey forever and that Liz KNOWS it. Now I'm no expert but I would think when you're trying to make people want to work with you, you have to make them feel GOOD. Not make them feel like they are being talked down to or being TOLD what to do. Like a potential "flipper" will only "flip" when it benefits THEM or at least when they THINK it benefits THEM. Sure Liz's points that she is making are valid and logical. But her execution is kinda abrasive.



HOWEVER, the idol threat SEEMS to have worked splendidly (for now). Darnell at the very least seems to be buying it. He came to me telling me Liz had the idol, asked me what I thought about it. I played it as cool as I could. Then Darnell himself brought up wanting to make a move this round. I had been talking to him about FTC and how my vote would be undecided if the F2 was Lindsey and Taj, doing my best to paint them as some sort of power couple. I think Darnell also feared that himself so all of this just motivated him to want to make a move this round on Taj and vote her out. He suggested him (Darnell), me (Keith) and Ken voting for Taj along with Malcolm's black vote that we HOPE is on Taj (could be on Lindsey) I was apprehensive about Ken actually wanting to go through with this plan. but he came online today and let me know that he is completely down.


Let's talk about Ken for a minute. He was so blind to being the OBVIOUS F4 boot that it's sad. Like you can tell from a mile away Linds, Taj would have ditched him at Final 4 for being the frontrunner to win. So after I won immunity, I talked to Ken briefly saying I am willing to vote Liz. I voiced how I think it would be smarter to target Taj now and get rid of the double vote. He said he agreed and then apparently ran to Taj telling her what I said <___< Like it would be one thing if I wasn't immune. But dude. HOARD that information. use it NEXT round. That's what I would have done. Of course he doesn't know that Taj will tell Darnell who will tell me so I can't be too hard on him I suppose. But the dude is not aware enough to know that I actually WANT him in the game whereas he was quickly becoming disposable to Taj and Linds.


But then TODAY, he talked to me and Darnell. Darnell has been working OVERTIME to make a Taj vote happen. And looks like it's working. Initially our plan was to have Darnell, Ken and I vote Taj; Liz votes Lindsey; Lindsey and Taj vote Ken. But that plan went out the window when Taj approached Liz to vote Ken. Now I was worried that Liz would actually want that over voting Taj. So I was making my pitch to Liz on how it's better to vote Taj. She was agreeing with me but I kinda felt like she was just BSing me? IDRK. Like I was 50-50 on whether Liz would vote Ken or Taj. But I was letting Darnell know that I KNOW I can get Liz to vote Taj. Mostly I wanted to make sure that Darnell, Ken don't get cold feet and change their minds. But it SEEMS like Darnell is COMMITTED to making a Taj vote happen. So much so that Darnell also roped in Lindsey to do it somehow??? I DON'T UNDERSTAND THIS. Does EVERYONE want to go to F2 with Darnell? Like don't get me wrong I GET why people like him. Heck I myself will 100% go to F2 with him if I have control over who sits next to me. But the fact that Darnell convinced Lindsey to vote off Taj, her best bet at F2 is baffling. Like I figured Taj and Lindsey were LOCKED IN to an F2 at this point. This is actually sketching me out now and part of me thinks this is all going to backfire and that they'll end up splitting the vote somehow? IDK if they CAN split though so I shouldn't worry about that. Like I would PREFER if Taj left this round. Because Liz can be a target before me next round (which also means no 5th place finish RIP) But if Liz DOES end up going this round, I might still be able to survive next round? Ken, Darnell and I have a group chat now and I can HOPE this chat carries me to F4 at least. However I can't survive F4 with JUST Darnell. I'd need Ken on my side too. Which IDRK. Ok I am getting ahead of myself here. Current plan SEEMS to be Everyone votes Taj, Taj votes Ken. IDK though man. I expect everything to fall apart again. FORTUNATELY THIS TIME, I am guaranteed to be in the game for next round   God I love this game

[keith]

I am like 99% sure this isn't going to work. It's too quiet. And it's too sketch that NO ONE cares about "Hey what if Liz KEEPS her idol?" Nah bruh. I think she's gonna get voted off. Which is fine you know it's what was going to happen anyways. I'll just be bummed that Darnell lied to me. Or even he was kept out of it which would probably be worse tbh. Also I really DID want to see this fake idol thing work lmao. Oh well. Back to square one. HEY MAYBE I'LL GET THAT 5TH PLACE FINISH AFTER ALL.

[keith]

Round 11/Final 5:

How the FUCK did that work? HOW! That should  NOT have worked. Liz got ZERO votes. ZERO. On top of that, Liz claims it's going to work again??? HOWWWWWWWW.

So this round I think I am fucked. Linds and Ken will be afraid to vote Liz because of her "idol". Liz is smart enough to deflect the target onto me. So unless I win immunity, I am toast. I have NO idea who Taj's black vote will be for. She sent me a message saying "Good luck you icon" on her way out. IDK what to make of that. It pretty much HAS to be me or Liz going home this round. I guess IF Liz wins immunity, she can bluff that she's "playing the idol" on me? IDK if she WOULD do that though? I don't trust anyone besides Darnell here hahahaha.

Speaking of Darnell, I told him the full story of how Alecia was voted off last night. AFAIK no one else knows the full story of what exactly happened with the Final 10 vote. It felt good telling him. I feel like Darnell really does want to go to F2 with me. IDK if he thinks he can beta me. I think he can. But IDC about that. I regret voting off Alecia. I am NOT making the same mistake again with Darnell.

IDEK what I WANT to happen this round. Well no that's not true. I want Lindsey out. Lindsey wants me out. MAYBE Liz will vote Lindsey with me? IDK if Darnell would do that. I can promise Darnell that I'll vote off Liz at F4. Which I am really very willing to do. Maybe Darnell will expect me to vote Liz with him? But why would he expect that if he believes Liz's idol is real. I DON'T KNOW MAN. My vote is going to be either Liz or Lindsey this round. I am NERVOUS but also EXCITED? Like this is sink or swim for me and I am going to give it my ALL to survive. But if I DON'T, then I get that ELUSIVE 5th place finish and complete my ORG PLACEMENT BINGO <3 Win-fucking-win baby!

[keith]

Ah another day another scramble. So my vote this round is going to be on Lindsey. I was afraid initially that Liz will want me gone for being her biggest obstacle to win out comps till the end. Now this could STILL become the case but for now it looks like Liz wants me to stay. She didn't know that the black vote was still in play next round. But imo the smarter move for Liz is to vote Lindsey. Lindsey's black vote will be against me or Ken so Liz pretty much gets a free pass to F3 if I survive this vote. On the other hand if Liz votes me out she 100% needs to win the next comp.

I talked to Hoang as well. He asked me if Liz was playing the idol on me. I said I hadn't talked to her this round so I didn't know yet. I am not sure if I am selling this correctly. I need that sweet spot of confidence and paranoia. Right now I am leaning more toward the paranoid side which might lead to my demise if they catch on to the idol being fake. Hoang did say "we're voting Lindsey here. As hard as that is". Threw up red flags for me honestly. I told Hoang I won't vote for him and I meant it. But he could very well take advantage of that fact and throw his vote on me knowing I won't vote him. He has nothing to lose.

So if Liz is on my side, which for the moment I think she is, then I just need Darnell on my side. Now this SHOULDN'T be a problem since we have a Final 2 deal. But Darnell has been acting a BIT distant this round. So I am not really sure. It's so hard for me to get a read on the others still. Darnell is PROBABLY guaranteed F2 at this point. Like if Liz goes on an immunity run, she'll vote off Ken/Lindsey first. If Liz doesn't win immunity then Liz goes at 4. But in an F3 of Lindsey, Ken, Darnell I am not sure who Ken would take to F2. Lindsey would take Darnell. On the other hand if Lindsey goes this round, one Darnell could be worried about me and Liz sticking together to take out Ken and him at 4 and 3. Even though I have repeatedly told him he is my Final 2 partner, he could still have doubts. That's not even factoring in whether he WANTS to go to the end with me. Like is there any jury threat among us? IDT I am one. Morgan hates me. Jeff and Malcolm would probably vote me to win but it depends on the questions. Taj wished me luck on her way out but that's not really saying much. Lindsey wouldn't vote for me. Ken is a tossup. Liz would be more likely to vote for me. Lots of variables in here. Darnell has played an AMAZING game. He has been the main (if not only) reason for the Morgan, Jeff and Taj boots. He has a STRONG resume and he is super likable. I'd LOVE to go up against Darnell at FTC. I just hope he wants that too.

So yeah IDRK how this vote will go. Even if Lindsey goes home this round, her black vote is likely going to be against me. This battle for survival won't end anytime soon. Unless I'm voted out tonight lolol. In which case YAYYY to ORG placement BINGO babay!

[keith]